It is safe to say I had some time off blogging. I quit my job in May. The 9-5 desk job just wasn’t for me.
I didn’t have anything else lined up but I knew I needed a break to allow myself to feel my feelings. I managed to train most days and walk my dog a lot. However having all my time to myself meant my depression soon set back in. After a month off I need to find something to do with my time.
I took a summer job working crazy hours in an international school. I loved it! Not once did I cry before work. I’d spent the last year loathing my job, crying most mornings and hating it! I started to think that I just couldn’t work with my depression. However it was my job that was the problem.
My summer job is now over and I am left asking where do I fit in now? The answer – I have no clue! And that is ok…
Some people say they never know where they fit not matter there age. Stuff that fits you at 22 won’t fit you at 55. The only sure thing in life is change and we all have to get use to it – even if it does set out anxiety into over drive sometimes. Besides who really wants to fit in maybe it is time to find where I stand out.
From here I am going travelling for 3 months (queue blogs about travelling). After that I have no plan I am going to allow travelling to mould my next step and if it doesn’t that’s ok too. I have finally got to a point where I’m doing my best not to stress. I always try and challenge myself to get better an managing my depression and anxiety. Travelling is something I have never done before and I am determined to be excited and not allow myself to turn my excitement into anxiety again.
I actually feel proud about how far I have come in the last 2 1/2 years. TAKE THAT ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION!